I have worked so hard on my mental health and creating a nontoxic environment for my life and my marriage. And yet I still cannot escape my mothers toxic behavior she’ll always find a way to bring me down.
So with my PCOS one of my symptoms is facial hair. I discovered back in January that electrolysis can permanently stop the hair growth. It is a long process, can take upwards of 1-2 years and it can be pretty painful. But it is SO worth it. I have now been doing it for 8 months and every time I touch my face and feel smooth skin I want to cry.
I dont even know if anyone follows me really still but if you have this issue and have questions about electrolysis and the process let me know.
Fuck weddings i wish we would have eloped this stress is not worth it. Everything feels like it’s falling apart and it feels like people are dropping like flies and can’t come which I completely understand they all have things going on. But it doesn’t change how it makes me feel
I haven’t had a lot of bad days lately but I just wanted to cry all day. Emotions hitting me really hard lately. Sometimes I just want to leave this world. Never ending pressures building and building and nothing seems to slow down or get better.
I watched today as a youtuber I follow found out she was pregnant after years and years of infertility. And as she played back all her rants about her let downs and failures to conceive I couldn’t help but just ugly cry. It’s so hard because you spend years telling yourself that it’s fine, you dont want kids, almost to brainwash yourself so that it’s not everything you think about. But like I can’t help but think how I’m disappointing my soon to be husband, even though he also says it’s ok, I love you regardless. But I see him with his nieces and nephews and he will be such a great father and I want that for him, but it’s not something I can give him.
I cant wait till we no longer live with loud disrespectful messy unorganized unappreciative ass people. They are family and I love them, but they are shitty roomates.
No one is saying that you MUST have sex with trans people.
Or fat people
Or disabled people
Or dark-skinned black people
Or or or….
When activists say things like “It’s transphobic to say that you aren’t attracted to trans women,” that doesn’t translate to “You absolutely have to find a trans woman right now and bone down!” Instead, what they’re saying is “The only thing that all trans women have in common is that they’re trans women. They all look different, act different, think different, have different bodies and are at different stages of transition. There is no way that you find every single one of them unattractive. To specifically single them out as a group that you dislike is based on stereotypes and bias, not reality.”
It benefits all of us to take the time to examine our internal bias. Recognizing that prejudice and reflecting on it is a good thing. Maybe your sexual or romantic leanings will never change. That’s okay. But let’s not just brush past these things by saying “It’s a preference” when really: these thoughts are based on a culture of discrimination, stereotypes and bigotry. Labeling them as such is a reflection on that culture, not on your love life.
I just have to try to remember that my living situation is temporary… this will only be like 8 more months. My roommates/brother inlaw and his wife are just so inconsiderate. I share a wall with the laundry area and they do laundry at 10 at night knowing that we are sleeping… and my dog is a puppy and anxious so noises make him restless when he cant see where they are coming from, then he gets bad sleep and he wont sleep in then I cant sleep in. And they are always leaving lights on and they never clean up after themselves and I take care of their dog.
